My name is Sitaram. Some people call me as Ram and some call me as Sita. I am an orphan. I was brought up in a missionary hostel in Mysore and with lot of difficulties I completed my Engineering in computer science. I was able to get decent marks in my B.E. As per the rules of the missionary, one cannot stay after 22 years and today I completed my 22 years. Just because of my education. I have requested the missionary father to grant me additional 6 months so that I can get a job based on my qualifications. But even after 6 months, I could not get any job. Then church father gave the details of one of our seniors in the hostel and asked me to meet him in Bangalore and suggested I can stay with him till I get the job.
He mentioned he has already spoken about me to him. His name is Raghu Ram and he is 27 years old. He is working in a senior role in one of the Top IT MNC. As suggested, I packed my bags and with heavy emotions I left the hostel and reached Bangalore. It was the first time for me in Bangalore and with little savings that I had by working as a part time in coffee day, reached the Raghu Ram’s house. The house is very far from city as it is close to his office. Raghu Ram welcomed me happily and asked me to be comfortable till I get the job. He owns a flat in a posh apartment and it is 3 bhk. He asked me to take one room. As I do not have much luggage, I was comfortable in any house. After coming from hostel, the house is like a luxury to me and felt very relaxed.
For me it is a new life coming out from hostel. I was very good at studies and always in the top 5 in the class. I am about 5.3ft, fair in complexion and very slim. Once in around 8th standard, I remember played a female character in hostel drama. From that day, my interest to wear female clothes increased, but it was always in my heart and had not shared with anyone as I felt insecure to share with anyone.
Its really struggling period for me in Bangalore for the first two months as I could not get any job or any calls. Every day I used to meet consultants, but nothing was moving. Surprisingly, one day in afternoon at around 1.30 PM, Raghu called on my mobile and asked where I was? It was really surprising as he never asks these questions. I just mentioned that I am on the way after meeting consultant. Immediately, he asked me meet one person and gave the details and address. They are looking for fresh engineers and asked me to give a try. Immediately without thinking of lunch, I reached there in 30 mins. There are so many people and my turn for the interview came at around 4.30 PM, though I was very exhausted, I have answered all the questions and they asked me to wait at the reception. I got a call at around 6.00 for an HR round. Everything went on well. As it was start-up company, everything was very fast. After finishing the HR round, they asked me to leave for the day. Next day in the morning I got a call that I have been selected and got the job with a package of Rs.180,000 per annum. It was a big amount for me considering my back ground. I have thanked Raghu and requested for one more month to stay. He smiled at me and said, I need not go anywhere and can stay here till the time I wanted. Though I do not know how to say thanks, I just kissed his hand and said “thanks for all the help
It was the most happening part of life. I started my work in the new company and after one month, when I got my salary, I was very happy. After receiving my first salary, I asked Raghu what should I do?, he smiled at me and said pay some amount to missionary and buy the best things for yourself like clothes, shoes etc., As suggested by him, I paid 25% of first take home to missionary and bought clothes, shoes with some amount. I started saving some money for myself. But in the meantime, I slowly started taking responsibility of the house, as I was helping the cook in the hostel, I started cooking in the house and Raghu also stopped having food at hotel and started enjoying my food. After nearly 2 months, it became regular for me to cook breakfast in the morning and cook dinner at night.
One day I realized that I have saved good amount of money, thought of buying the female clothes. After lot of thinking, I started verifying in the internet and found some lady’s boutique contact details. Took some courage, and met the boutique lady. I told them that I am participating in a drama competition and need some lady’s clothes. They smiled at me and helped me in buying saree, petticoat and bra for me. And stitched blouse and salwar kameez for me. As the delivery date is coming closure, I was very excited. In the meantime, I bought wig and hair remover cream.
And finally, the day arrived. I took my clothes and reached home. After finishing dinner, rather than spending time in front of TV, I pretended that I am feeling sleepy and went to my room. With lot of struggle for 2 weeks I learned wearing saree. It was really amazing for me.
I started feeling very happy and even in office; I started doing the work fast, with the intention of reaching home early. My superiors in office, felt very happy as I started doing the work very fast.
One day Raghu informed that he will not be coming home on Friday night and will be back only on Sunday morning , so that I do not prepare food for him. I thought that this is a great opportunity for me dress for the whole day. So after coming home, I changed myself to saree and cooked the food, ate and slept in the saree. I got up around 10.30 AM in the morning; prepared coffee and reading the newspaper and see Raghu Ram sleeping in his room. Suddenly, my legs started trembling, I went to my room, removed my saree and took bath and started preparing breakfast for both of us. I felt it was miraculous escape, but I was still in doubt, if he has seen me in saree when I was sleeping. He got up lately and ate breakfast, and suggested lets go out for lunch. As such he has not spoken anything about it.
He did not allowed me to pay the bill and we had long walk after the food and he bought some clothes for him as he needs to travel to US for 3 months. We came pretty late in the evening say around 4.30 PM and he was relaxing in sofa. He ordered for tea, which he never asked in the past 3 months. I felt I doubt everything. Without thinking anything, I got up from sofa and prepared tea for myself and to him. He praised my tea and mentioned thanks to me. After drinking Tea, he said, its been 3 months, that did not had my food outside the house and thanks once again for all these things. I feel I am really happy to have such partner like you. Then I asked him, why you don’t get married. He smiled and said, “you know in India it is not easy to get a girl for an orphan like us as we still believe in family systems and background of the family before marriage. So as such, I need to go for love marriage only and for that I do not think I am good at it. As such, I have not thought about my marriage now, let’s see how it goes”.
I asked him for how many days his travel to US and when he needs to leave. He mentioned that it is for just 60 to 75 days, and will be leaving next Friday. By saying he came forward to give some amount so that I can pay the utility bills for the house. I have rejected saying that I have money and will take care of it. He took back money and asked me what I should bring back from US for you, I told him I have no such expectations and I wish that you come back as soon as possible. It just came natural to me as I was not expecting anything from him. He stared at me for a moment and said will see what I can buy for you there. So finally, Friday came and asked me apply leave on Friday so that I can help him in packing the luggage. I applied leave and helped him in packing the luggage. Even though it was first time that I am packing some body’s luggage. I took entire care to ensure that he will not have any problems there.
First I kept all the requirements at one place and then placed in suit case one by one. By around 4.00PM everything was ready and was about to leave house. He just hugged me and wished me thanks for helping him. As I was short to him, he needs to bend a lot. He hugged me and whispered in my ears that I will bring something from US which will make you happy.
The moment he left, I relaxed for some time and went out buy some thing for me. I bought nighty, petticoats, sarees and gave the blouse for stitching. Now I became an expert in wearing sarees and got one tailor who stitches blouse for me. My intention was to enjoy this time as complete female at home as I will be alone. During the weekend, I went for more shopping, and bought items for stitching half saree. Now I am more excited as I have salwar, half saree , 5 sarees , nighties, panties, bras and many petticoats. I felt I have sufficient clothes to wear and experience feminine side at home. But I have no interest in going out.
In these 2 months, I learned how to knot hair in a feminine way and other girly things. I felt very happy and thought of quitting this habit once Raghu Ram comes back. In these two months at home, I was behaving and dressing as lady and felt great happiness. Even at the work front, I got an increment, which is very unusual for a fresher. Though I have not been promoted, but the responsibilities have increased. My manager has written a personal mail to Raghu Ram for referring me and Raghu Ram has forwarded that mail to me. Though Raghu was away, he used to be in regular touch with me through emails and messages. He mentioned in one of the message that he is really missing my food. That made me feels happy. With the help of internet, I learned many dishes so that I can surprise him when he is back.
I did not expect how the time has gone these 2+ months, Raghu mentioned that he will be back home on Monday morning and requested me to take a leave for that day as it’s been a long time. Though I was surprised, but felt, anyhow I do not have any relatives or friends and I usually do not take leaves. So applied for leave on coming Monday. So over the weekend I was thinking of fully enjoying my feminine side, keep my dresses secretly. I was casually and happily prepared my coffee and breakfast. I was eating the same over the dining table and reading the newspaper. Suddenly I saw door was opened and it caught me by surprise. I was wearing the half saree,wig ,bangles etc
My heart was beating above the normal level.
Raghu : I know you like to wear female clothes . I have seen you one day. I have no issues if you continue
Me : No not that
Raghu : Dear, I have seen you.
By hearing such a sweet words, my eyes became very wet and I started crying. He came forward and hugged me very tightly and said, “Sita, I said do not worry, you just be normal and please go and wash your face first. Please do not cry”.
When I was about to leave his room, he asked me to use his wash room, I went inside and washed me face and used his napkin to clean the face.
He gave me glass of water and asked me to relax. Then he said,” you were really looking beautiful in female clothes and I want you to continue when you are at house, but at the same time, I do not want to force you, I leave the decision to you.
Me : (Silent)
Raghu : I knew you will be female clothes now, that’s why I came early to give you surprise, otherwise I will never be able to see you in the clothes.
Me : Raghu, I am sorry, I will never wear those clothes again. Please leave me. If you want, I will leave the house now.
Raghu : No Sita, you are mistaken, I do not want to leave the house. I want you to continue stay here, but please stay with freedom. I am saying you can continue to wear female clothes, I have no issues.
Me : I am sorry, I feel shy to expose myself. Please do not force me.
Raghu: Sita, you might feel for the first time, probably once you used to it, I do not think it will be problem. As I said, you look beautiful in female clothes. I am not asking for any sexual favours from you, what I am saying is just continue how you are when I am not at home and wear the clothes which you like.
He opened a box, which contains chocolates and cookies brought from US, and asked me to take it and keep it in hall. I felt happy so that I can move out from room. I went to hall , kept the box on the dining table and went to my room. I was just staring at window, then I heard a door knock , when I turned, it was Raghu. This is the first time, Raghu came to my room. He came with another box and sat on my bed. He just looked at my bed sheet and window curtains.
Raghu : Hmm..so you like orange colour a lot. Your bed sheet and curtains are matching. I like it.
Me : (Silent) (Just thinking, Oh ! god, this person is not leaving me !!)
Raghu : I bought this for you after searching more than 3 weekends and at last I bought this through online. Please do not disappoint me.
Me : What is this?
Raghu: As I said, this is especially for you. Please accept this.
Me : Raghu, please excuse me, as I said, before you left, I do not want anything from you.You already helped me a lot and I am burden on you.
Raghu: Sita, never think like that and I have never felt it like that.This is for you and I would be glad if you take this .
Me: May I know what is this?
Raghu: Before that , I want you to wear favorite dress and please do not disappoint me.
Me : Ok Raghu, I know you have been asking me from the past 1 hour , ok, will wear ,but for that you need to go out.
Raghu: Wow, I am glad. But before you wear your dress, I want you to open this box and see what I brought for you.
Me : sure, will see .but I need at least one hour to one & half hour. But this might delay our lunch.
Raghu: Do not worry about lunch. Will bring from outside. I just want you to be happy and wear your favourite dress for me please.
Me : (Smiled). Sure. Will wear, but first you please go out. You should not be in front of female when they are changing clothes. (I do not know, how I said this)
Raghu: (Smiled) yes Sita. Take your time.
The moment he went outside, I locked my room and ensure twice that it is locked. I went to washroom, removed my body hair and took bath. I came out and took my favorite yellow colour saree.After taking the saree, blouse, bra, panty and petticoat. Before wearing the saree, my eyes turned towards the box.
I thought of opening the box later, and took my wig first, adjusted properly, and then took petticoat. Tied petticoat to my waist and then took the blouse. But my eyes were on the box. I could not control. I tried to open the box, but could not, so tried to open the door to see if Raghu is around, but to my surprise, he was not around, went to kitchen, to bring scissor and knife, while coming, I saw jasmine flowers on dining table, with a note mentioning “for sita”. I just laughed and took to my room. I understood that he might have gone out to bring lunch. I went back to my room and opened the box and surprised to see that the box contains adhesive breast forms and artificial vagina. I do not know how to react, and then there is one brochure about usage of it. I read it carefully for about 30 mins and tried to follow as per instructions.
After nearly 30 mins, I fixed breasts and vagina.
Then I started wearing my panty, petticoat, bra and blouse. Observed that my hips have widened. As I do not have full length mirror, I could not see myself. Before wearing the saree, I fixed my wig properly with pins and knotted my hair in typical female style and took the hair band which is matching my saree.
I fixed bindi, bangles and artificial jewelry. I applied little bit of lipstick and face pack. After nearly 3 hours, I am about to step out of room. Normally I never took so much of time, but somehow, I wanted to look best as I am appearing in front of Raghu for the first time.
I waited in front of the door for 5 mins before opening it. I took deep breath and said to myself, “let me see his reaction”. I adjusted my hair, kept the hair in front so that it is more sensual. Again I went back to check myself in the mirror. Then my eyes again lied on the box. I saw one lady’s perfume; I took into my hands and surprised that how much Raghu thought about me. I sprayed over my saree. Took deep breath and drank little water. Went towards the door. Waited for a minute and slowly opened the door.
The moment I opened the door, I could see him standing in front of my door, waiting for me.
I was completely shocked with this statement, and I was silent. I came back to senses, and asked him why are you caring me so much? And I am not sure how to repay you the kind to love and affection that you are showing towards me. I have never experienced such things in my life.
He stared at me for a moment and kissed on my forehead. Then both of us stood for some time in the balcony. This is the first time, I came out of the room and mentioned same to him. Then immediately, he took the car keys and asked me to come out. I resisted so much, but he did not listened. He took me to nearby mall, but I told him before entering that I will not be speaking anything. If I speak anything, they will get to know about my gender. He just smiled and said, just look at the people and their reaction towards us.
The moment we stopped our car, small boy came towards me to buy jasmine flowers, then I remember that I forgot to keep the flowers in my hair, when I was about to buy, Raghu took the wallet and bought it and said, do not remove your wallet. Keep it in the car. Then I realized that I do not have lady’s hand bag. It was really amazing feeling. It was like wife and husband entering the mall. All are looking at us , thinking that we are newly married. After few mins, a sales girl approached me to buy newly arrived lipstick and other girly stuff, I just simply smiled and just moved my head mentioning that I do not need.
We roamed for about 1 hour and we reached back home at around 9.30 PM. We both sat on sofa and cherished the moments for a while. When Raghu was about to go to his to change his dress, I just stopped him and hugged him tightly and said,” Thanks for everything”. My eyes became very wet and kept my head on his shoulders. He slowly touched me and cleaned my eyes and said,” I love you and want you to be my wife”.
This I did not expected in my life. I told him, I am man and cannot satisfy you like a female. I am just cross dresser and when I was about to say more, he just stopped me and said,” For me you are my wife and nobody can take care of house and me like you”. I simply said, “Raghu, I am sorry, I can’t understand what you are saying”. He kept his hand on my waist, pushed me towards him, and hugged me again and kissed back side of my neck and rubbed his hand on my ass. It was really strange feeling and requested him to stop, but he did not listened by words. He was just caressing my body and kissing me. He lifted me completely and took me to the bed room. He made my lie on the bed, I was still closing my eyes, and kissed my entire body, though I was telling him to stop this, but I never insisted to stop it.
I was feeling very different. He took it as an advantage and removed my saree. I was still closing my eyes. He kissed at my waist and kissed my navel. When he tried to remove the knot of Petticoat, I tried to stop him and then I realized that he is completely nude. I am completely shocked to see him like that. Immediately he removed my petticoat, came between my legs and forcefully inserted his manliness. When I told him, it’s hurting, he kissed at my lips passionately. I have never imagined this situation in my life; I became a Barbie doll for Raghu. For about 30 mins, he enjoyed me and released hot sperms over my navel. Both felt very tired and slept off.
I got up early morning at 6.00 AM and realized that we are hugging each other and sleeping. Somehow I got up slowly from bed, cleaned artificial vagina as per instructions and breast forms. Took bath and wore breast forms and vagina. Rather than wearing saree again, I took the nighty, prepared coffee for myself and sat in front of bed for Raghu to get up. As I applied leave for today, I was in no hurry.
The moment he got up, looked at me and wished me good morning. He asked for morning newspaper and coffee. I prepared coffee and gave him the newspaper. He read the newspaper and completed coffee. After couple of mins, he looked at me and said sorry for what has happened and I am glad to see you in female clothes in the morning. He asked me to come over the bed, but I politely told him that I already finished my bath, but he insisted. The moment I went close to him, he hugged me tightly and enjoyed my body similar to last night. But only difference is that I started cooperated him like a real wife. After he released his sperms, I cleaned his penis with napkin and smiled at him. After cleaning, I looked at him and he pulled me towards his chest , I kept my head on his chest and caressed his chest hair. I was deeply thinking about changes happened in the last 24 hours. After 10 mins of silence, he asked me,” will you marry me?”
Me : I do not understand what you are saying. How can I marry you. I might be wearing female clothes, but I am not female.
Raghu : So what, science has advanced so much that you can become female
Me : But I think it involves lot of money ,time and pain.
Raghu : I agree there is time and pain, but do not worry about money.If money is a problem, I will go on another client visit out of India and will save some money for your surgery.
Me : But who will do the surgery and where?
Raghu : Do not worry all these things, first tell me will you marry me and be my wife for lifelong?
Me : I did not expect that my life will change so much. The way you are took care of me these days, that I am confident on you and I hope I can be your best wife and will try to satisfy you by all the means.
(When I was saying this, I became emotionally very weak and started crying)
Raghu : Hey, do not worry , I will love you for life long and will take care of you.
As it was already 8.00 AM, I went to kitchen to prepare delicious breakfast which I learned during his visit to US. We both enjoyed the breakfast and tea after the breakfast.
After the breakfast, he verified his mails and searched something over the net and asked me to sit beside him. In just two days, the relation between us got changed so much.
He asked me how I removed my hair, then I told him that I used the hair removing cream. Then he suggested me to go for laser treatment for entire body to get rid of body hair. I told him fine and then in the afternoon he took an appointment with psychologist for me so that we can proceed to meet doctor.
After 10 discussions, counselor gave her green signal to consult a doctor. It was like a dream coming true for both of us. We met the doctor and he started giving me hormone doses and asked me to come to the clinic for every 3 months for an injection. And for the first time, I took the hormone injection. It was really painful and could not concentrate on anything for one week. I took the sick leave for one week and took sufficient rest. Raghu was really taking care of me and worried about my health. After one week, It became usual to go office and wearing the female clothes & fulfilling the kitchen duties. It was after 3 months, I started observing changes in my body. My skin became smooth and felt some sort of mood swings and becoming very emotional for small reasons. Raghu used to smile at me and made me aware whenever I am passing through mood swings. After 5th month, I started to have small breasts of my own and from then onwards, I started wearing loose shirts to office and requested to give me Work from home option as it will be tough for me work. With lot of difficulty, convinced them but with a condition to come to office once in 2 weeks.
After 6 months, I stopped using the breast forms and for the first time, I showed my breasts to Raghu. He was shocked and surprised. He was trying to touch. Understanding his hesitations, I took his head and pressed him to my breast and made him to suck my breast. Wow…it was an amazing feeling. He was sucking like a baby. I realized value of being lady that moment. Life became very hectic for me due to hormonal changes. And it became very difficult in the office to continue as more and more questions being asked about my mental stability. But still I persisted to continue as every rupee is valuable for both of us. But due to changes in my body, I have been asked to leave the company. It was the saddest day. But Raghu supported me very well and consoled me not to worry about it.
Hormonal therapy continued for nearly 18 months and now I have joined for voice therapy so that my voice can be full female voice. Now I realized that my wardrobe needs to be changed as my male clothes are not at suitable for me to wear. After several discussions with counselor and doctors, my date for surgery arrived. It was a great moment. I was admitted into the hospital and several pre-surgery tests were done before the day of surgery. It was really painful. And finally the D-Day arrived. Raghu was completely with me and supported me well. Surgery started around 5.00 AM in the morning and ended at 3.30 PM. Doctor declared it successful. It took one week for me get discharged and doctor advised both of us not to have intercourse for the next 2 months, though doctor asked me to use dildo every alternative day for the next 2 months. It was really strange feeling. Now I am complete female with doctor certificate, mentioning Sita as female. It was like a birth certificate. But I have been asked to take some hormone medicines regularly and to consult the doctor for every six month to reduce/increase dosage based on the condition.
I used to visit the doctor for regular checkup and the doctor used to check my entire body including vagina and gave a green signal for intercourse. Both of us felt very happy. Raghu arranged a date for our marriage which is a complete private affair and arranged for get together with his friends. Apart from one or two, nobody was aware about my history. Party went on very well. Raghu applied for one week leave for honey moon and we headed to Goa to celebrate it
Raghu booked the hotel which is close to beach and it was all fun. First day, we spent mostly at beach playing water games and enjoying the sea shore. After nearly 1+ year, I was wearing short and t-shirt. I felt very shy to show myself in this dress. Though I was enjoying at the beach, I feel like going to the room and changing it to saree. Probably because of the counseling sessions that I have undergone, I am not comfortable to be in shorts. I told the same thing to him that I am not comfortable in shorts. Raghu just smiled at me and said, “let me plan, so that you will not wear any dress in Goa”. We both smiled at this statement.
We had really fun time. We had lunch & dinner outside and at about 8.30PM we set towards our room. The moment I saw the room, I was surprised, it was neatly decorated with flowers and it was amazing to see. I could not believe that Raghu has planned so much and I just hugged him & kissed him. After 5 mins, I have mentioned give me some time, let me have quick bath. Raghu said, you will take more time, let me finish first. But at the end, we agreed to have bath together and it was really fun. After his bath, he asked him to leave the washroom.
As doctor suggested, I played with dildo for 5 mins and I am really excited to have my first intercourse as wife of Raghuram.
He changed to Denim shorts and t-shirt , went for a small walk as he feels, I might be late and asked me to join at the hotel lounge. As it was lot of humid in Goa, I selected soft white cotton saree with red border which has pink colour checks and wore matching bangles.
Before going out of the room, I checked several times in mirror & adjusted saree pleats properly. sprayed my perfume over entire room to have nice fragrance . Got confidence and met him at the lounge. He was very happy to see me and we took small walk for about 15 mins. While walking he was holding my waist and caressing my ass once in a while, I tried to stop him, but he was not in a mood to listen. We finished our walk and reached back to the room. The fragrance of the room was really killing. I just entered the room and Raghu closed the door. I welcomed him to hug me; he was very excited and hugged me like a hungry lion. He made the lights dim and started removing my dress one by one. While he was removing my saree, I removed my bangles so that it will not hurt us. He slowly whispered in my ears that he is not going to leave me today. I became nude for the first time as wife for him and I could feel his body heat. He removed his clothes and hugged me very tightly. I offered him my right breast, he started sucking it and in between he started biting, I was moaning heavily. After some time, I asked him to suck left breast. He slowly came down my body and kissed my vagina. It was like a heaven for me. For first time, I understood what orgasm is. I was moaning heavily. I could not control my temptation. I made him lie on the bed, and gave him the best blow job and was on top of him. After nearly 10 mins, he came over me and pushed his penis deep inside my vagina. It was really beautiful. I understood the beauty of intercourse that day. We enjoyed the whole night and not sure when we slept. I got up around 8.00 in the morning. Raghu was still sleeping. I am still nude. I kissed him at the forehead and while kissing his forehead, my breast accidentally touched his mouth and he immediately grasped it and started sucking it. And again in the morning, we had fun on bed.
Honeymoon trip ended and we came back to our home. Life is going on really well. After 6 months of marriage, I started my career again in one of top IT MNC Company and worked for 3 years. Then we opted for surrogacy and we are blessed with baby boy. Life is really sweet now for me as wife and mother. I think me and Raghu are made for each other!!
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